less about tonya and more about her image, and this makes it difficult to stomach when we see her head go through glass as the needle drops and the upbeat songs start playing. it's hard to reconcile my relationship with this film's depiction of tonya as a protagonist in relation to it giving her abuser a showcase to gaslight and make both of their perspectives seem equal. it's hard to reconcile how this handles abuse when the film gradually becomes not at all about her, her abuse becomes something else to add in the sea of sensationalist filmmaking, fourth wall breaks and over the top performances. it's hard to reconcile my relationship with this film's handling of abuse when i've been a victim of it, and it's impossible for me to view any of this as redeeming, insightful or empathetic. it's hard for me to watch this movie and not feel sick.