Watched on a laptop with a cracked display, cellphone distraction, haven’t slept yet, many things on mind… I don’t know. Might watch it again. I don’t like the sauna stuff.
I like the rain. I like to watch the water run down the window. It always calms me down. I don’t think about anything, I just watch the rain.
I’m not attached to anything any more. I don’t depend on anyone. I am going to leave. Because nothing is stable here. I can’t trust anyone. I know that I’m alone. I know it well.
But I can’t give up and I won’t give up. Big city crowds will applaud me.…
If I’m no use to others, at least I make the most of life. I observe nature. Observing nature is better than playing backgammon. Or doing nothing.
There are filmmakers that “wants to be” (or recognized as) “the next Tarkovsky” (haven’t seen them all yet). But, for me, the only one that comes close to him isn’t even there… Abbas Kiarostami.
Not the surface (maybe)—the heart.