cinema- to watch something in a darkened room, together but apart from the other patrons

food- to eat and to nourish and to contemplate, as you sit alone in front of a mirror

star- to burn brightly and then to fade

history- to be forgotten but to linger on in the periphery, to cause ache and nostalgia

light- to shine brightly on empty spaces but not empty faces

projector- to show possibilities and capture ghosts drifting across the screen

stranger- to stand in proximity and to almost touch but not quite

rain- to walk alone as you are lost in your thoughts

loneliness- to be

okay but audrey hepburn even deigning to look at humphrey bogart and him being like “i am a cold mystery man of business and logic, i can totally play with this woman’s heart and catch no feelings whatsoever”... absolutely, positively unrealistic, i tell you.

are you a girl?

i am a young woman

do you dance?

i want to touch someone else

is that your brother or your friend?

they are both intertwined: they have a maturity i crave

do you want a cigarette?

do not tell me i am too little for adult hedonism or i will scream

do you need a ride?

let me sit in the car in silence and pretend my heart has not been broken again and again

does the sun rise in the dawn?

should i ache like this, when i am not even old?