"if he didn't wake up from this, if he wasn't here tomorrow, it wouldn't matter for i know he'd be waiting for me in the afterlife or some safe celestial place, in this life and the next and the next one after. whatever there is in the world that follows for me, it will only require my patience to get to him again... you see, to be in love with him makes life no great mystery."

love is messy, real requited love. the compromises that make a relationship work can often be too much to handle or far too much to ask but if you truly love someone you will do it. you'll do anything. pta knows love and this beautiful piece of his mind oozes with it. when i watch this film i feel like i'm in a dream state. the scenes float past me and the score wraps around me like warm breeze. comforting but fleeting, like i'm watching another person's love from a safe enough distance to not interject myself into it. 

this love story isn't mine, the characters aren't like me in the slightest but their feelings, the logic behind the ridiculous things we do for one another while in love... that's what compels me. there is no guide on how to love, no right or wrong way how. there just is love and isn't that what it's all about? why we are alive? the reason we subject ourselves to pain? we do it all to give love, to feel loved, to find love. it's the most important aspect of our existence and phantom thread masters it.