Mulholland Drive ★★★★★

“I’m in love with you.”


Throughout its LA noir and main plotline, I felt myself drifting closer to Betty’s character even after the tone shift. As someone who dreams of living with the stars in the vast Hollywood hills, I couldn’t help but feel devastated by how slim those chances are for any aspiring actor/director. Hollywood sells the idea that anyone can “make it big” and live that life of celebrity, but what it actually boils down to is constant rejection, self-hatred, and a longing for acceptance that will probably never happen. I haven’t tried professional acting or writing scripts because I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough, and it’s okay to admit that to myself. If I ever do gain the confidence to audition or submit scripts, it’ll be out of a newfound faith in the film industry. As of now, my fear of rejection is definitely my own worst enemy.

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