m minton’s review published on Letterboxd:
“There’s not enough time, or maybe I’m just wasting my time.”
When I discovered growing up that I had a strong passion for writing and watching movies, the idea of the financial stability of those industries didn’t quite cross my mind. I wrote stories and watched movies because I loved it. End of story. But somewhere along the way, when we grow up, reality hits us. The near impossibility of breaking into the industry and making it big in the way your dreaming, wandering mind seems to find no alternative to. Is this what I really want to do with my life? Am I really good enough? Am I going to make enough money doing this? Am I truly committed? And we can no longer decide if we are being driven by fear or love. This is the sentiment that I was so emotionally connected to in watching Lin-Manuel Miranda’s film directorial debut, Tick, Tick…BOOM!, which is yet another exciting movie musical to come to us in 2021.
I felt so deeply with Andrew Garfield’s portrayal of Jonathan Larson, who gives probably his best performance yet (and that’s saying a lot!). I am not super familiar with Larson as a person or his work, but I very much felt with his desire to make something great before time runs out. Garfield did a fantastic job at bringing him to life in a way that was never over the top or inauthentic.
There becomes that point where the art you are creating takes over your life, and nothing else seems to matter. The sunlight may seep in from outside, but it doesn’t matter because you can’t feel it. You can only feel with the world you’ve created right in front of you. You keep creating and writing and re-writing because it makes you feel complete - it gives you life. And so he kept writing.
And so I keep writing, because I can’t imagine myself doing anything else in this lifetime. I write to stay alive; nothing else matters if I don’t do what I love. This movie is a beautiful and worthy testament to that.
Happy holidays to my fellow film lovers!